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Thursday, February 16th, 2006
11:08 pm	Wow. It strikes me that last month has been an exceptionally busy one. Let's do a quick recap, shall we? December 12, 2005: After getting completely fed up with my cousin's paranoid crap, I moved out, and began shuttling back and forth between hotels and the office. This was the beginning of the 'dropped off the face of the earth' phase. Mid January, 2006: Moved in with BrendanRoo and Marin, two furs who I met at Wolfj's meets. Spent the next 2 or 3 weeks moving in and reorganizing. Currently: I recently got a $2500 bonus (^.^), which I promptly spent on a new computer, synthesizer, and wireless router (TechnoJackal!). I also got my first lj icon, courtesy of BrendanRoo. So, that brings up to the current point.Anyway, You're all caught up, and I'm all tired, so I'll see you all later. Oh: The Nohari complement thing. Go wild. ^^ Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: CourtTV (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
3:24 am	Because I'm curious and I can... That Johari thing. There will be another post detailing some recent misadventures soon when it's not 4am and I have to go to work at 8 :). Just wanted to let everyone know, I am still alive, and still kicking! Current Mood: tired Current Music: Rhythm Of The Heat - Peter Gabriel, Security (1982) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 21st, 2005
11:06 am	Environmentalists: Prepare to be pwned This is how brains are supposed to work. I've come to that conclusion. I've spent the last couple of months in a bit of a funk, a funk I'm only now coming out of. I'm not hypomanic; I'm returning to optimal operating condition. How do I know this? Normally I'm a dynamo. A light sleeper who loves getting involved in debates, ranting, and building things. I haven't done ANYTHING over the past few months. It's not work... I have less work now than when I started at Verizon. The last few months I've been a sloth. I've been a bad mate to Max. I've been lazy. My liscense was taken away, I had an appendectomy, and I was stuck living at my parents for a few months. All things which are BADBADBAD for Jackals. This ends, now. And what better way to reintroduce myself than by a nice, intellectual rant angainst some of my favorite targets! ^.^ I hate Environmentalists. I don't hate Environmentalism; I'm a big supporter, in fact. Thing is, Environmentalism is the perfect cause for discontented morons with a desire to bitch. It's not complex, like abortion or politics, because how can you argue with the destruction of mother earth? And it's based around Kindergarten logic: "Factory Fumes = Bad... Pristine Environment = Good", and best of all, the real science of environmentalism is well beyond the grasp of the general public, so they can't as easily see what idiotic blowhards these people really are. You see, Environmentalism was never due to Environmentalists. The first significant emissions control act was implemented in the 1950s, before the 'movement' got started, and continued chugging steadily after all the tree-hugging hippies realized that being a tree-hugging hippy wasn't a real vocation, and sold out, proving themselves to be the most hypocritical generation in the history of the world. Emissions Control was not put into place by hippies roaming naked in the forest crying "OMG save the trees!". It was implemented by urbanites who noticed smog was bad, doctors who realized the health risks, and chemists who proved the cause (which isn't anywhere as obvious as it seems today; smog is not merely exhaust gases, but its exhaust gases the have gone under a series of complex photochemical reactions with the oxygen in the air), and politicians who realized that this was bad, and did something about it. DDT is cited as one of the biggest triumphs of the environmental movement. All I can say is "Thanks a lot, Assholes". You saved the bald eagles, sure. In the process you banned what was BY FAR the LEAST toxic insecticide known to man. During WWII they used to shower people with the stuff to get rid of lice, and no ill effects were ever documented. DDT is highly selective for insects. The egg shell thinning effect of eagles was the ONLY ill effect on mammals ever documented. Nowadays, we are stuck with the far more toxic malathion and parathion, which are actually nerve gas derivatives, but thank goodness, they don't kill eagles! DDT needs to be unbanned. It's cheap, safe, and effective. The Eagles might die off, true... on the other hand, just about everything else will flourish. Unless of course, you want to ban insecticides entirely, plunging the entire world into famine. 'Organic Farming' is not anywhere near as high-yield as conventional farming, and simply cannot feed the world. It's that simple. You see, this is Environmentalists modus operandi in a nutshell; only concentrate on the environment, ignore all long term effects on us. It's just like the electric cars and hydrogen cars, which are all the rage today. Pompous assholes drive around in these things, pretending they're saving the world. But guess where that electricity comes from? Smoke-Spewing Coal & Gas Power Plants, most likely. Hydrogen? It's made by electrolyzing water with massive amounts of electricity from... Smoke-Spewing Coal & Gas Power Plants. You're not driving an emissions-free, environmentally friendly vehicle. You just moved the emission away from you, and when you look at the entire system, these are probably LESS efficient than the state-of-the-art Gasoline and Hybrid vehicles. A true environmentalist drives a hybrid, happy in the knowledge that overall, emissions are minimized, accepting the fact that energy needs to come from somewhere, and odds are, that somewhere involves emissions! Which brings me to my next rant: Environmentalists are actually impeding Environmentalism. There are only two effective, clean sources of energy known to man: Hydroelectric and Nuclear. Wind Energy? Solar? Don't make me laugh. There is no possible way these systems could supply the world's energy. If you tried, you'd need to clearcut millions of acres to make room for the massive powerfarms. Is that Environmentalism? But what happens when we try to dam a river and build a hydro plant? Environmentalists bitch and moan about the fish dying. Never mind the thousands of tons of CO2 emissions created by the alternative; it's killing more than a few fish, I'll tell you that. And Nuclear? A safe, clean source of power killed by a propaganda campaign fueled by a completely irrational fear of anything radioactive. The best way we have to reduce emissions globally is to ditch coal and gas fire power plants, and replace them with Nuclear power plants. That's true environmentalism. Life is compromise. We enjoy an incredibly high standard of living. Is it worth destroying some of nature? I say Yes. Environmentalists say No. Yet they don't go back to nature and live like cavemen. You know why? Because enjoying nature is luxury only afforded to us by our standard of living. Pioneers lived in a pristine wilderness. But barely ekeing out a living, starving, and most likely dying of Tuberculosis or Influenza by age 40 doesn't afford one the luxury of enjoying it. Would they give it up to live in a modern city? I have absolutely no doubt. The problem is the baby boomers. A generation that grew up enjoying affluence the likes of which the world had never seen before. Spoiled brats who decided to rebel instead of growing up, and calling it a 'philosophy'. Of course, they instantly sold out the moment they realized that their mommies and daddies weren't gonna feed their spoiled asses anymore, and entered the real world. Their only legacy is a bunch of really bad 60s movies, the introduction of rampant drug abuse, and giving college students a bad name. I'm not pretending our generation has enjoyed hardships like the great depression and the World Wars. But at least we have the advantage of seeing what obnoxious fucktards our parents turned out to be. Current Mood: amused Current Music: The Clicking Of Workplace Keyboards (4 Comments |Comment on this)
5:03 am	Bipolar Jackal? I can't sleep. I feel incredible. No Drug could ever touch this. I'm excited and can barely stop pacing, writing, and talking to myself. Is it just excitement over my car, my grandma, and my new project? Or is it something deeper? I've had episodes like this before that definitely would fit under the "Hypomanic" category. Typically they last for a month or two. Manic-Depression runs in my family. Mom's got it. Odds are my sister does. And I would say I do too except for one significant detail. I don't get depressed. I've never had anything resembling a major depressive attack. Now Major depression without mania is common, the opposite is virtually unheard of. It's always possible that I could develop one in the future... they typically cycle Mania, then depression. Depression, then mania. This would be the fourth 'episode' sans any depression. So atypical of bipolar disorder as to be virtually contraindicting. One discussion I had with my Psychiatrist a few years back was intriguing. I've had periods of *extreme* anxiety. So bad that I was in an institution. I haven't had any since I've been on my meds *knock on wood*. But it raises an interesting question. Could those paranoid anxiety attacks been a very atypical manifestation of major depression? Or am I just reading far too much into something that's just normal excitement? Could someone *please* tell me if I'm mentally ill or not? I need to know... Things are going well... But what if I develop Major Depression? What if I get another paranoia attack? Are the neurological events that cause this already in motion? Or were they isolated incidents, brought on by a shitty childhood that I'm way too concerned about? One things for sure. I'm not gonna sleep tonight. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Amazona - Roxy Music, Stranded (1973) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:42 am	Inspiration! Presenting The JackalJet project Well, in my digging through file cabinets full of stuff I've acquired over the years, I stumbled across some schematics and technical writings on the 1970 Bosch D-Jetronic Fuel injection system. Besides giving me an excellent oppurtunity to brush up on my German, these writings inspired me for 2 reasons: 1. All modern fuel-injection systems are controlled by microprocessor. 2. There were no Microprocessors in 1970. The Bosch D-Jetronic was an ANALOG controlled fuel injection system. Now anyone who has been around me knows my obsessive, near irrational preference for anything analog over digital. Why? Simplicity. The D-Jetronic system uses around 40 transistors. To translate that same functionality into digital would require hundreds of thousands of transistors. So what if we can stuff them into a single chip? It's still a hell of alot more complex than necessary. Sure the digital system can provide more versatile corrections, but with proper tuning, we're talking a difference only a dynometer could detect. So I decided I'm gonna build and design (Strike that - reverse it) an analog EFI system for my car from scratch. I've done plently of EFI programming, and my analog design skills are probably only matched by a couple hundred people on the planet (It's not a skill that anyone - eccentric hobbyists excluded - bothers cultivating anymore). Will it be hard? Definitely. Will I blow my Cylinder Head in the process? It's a distinct possibility. Can I do it? Certainly. Tonight I have taken the first steps towards the JackalJet Engine Control System, by gathering my thoughts about engine functioning. Now I find the best way to understand something is to explain it, so here: ( Read more... ) Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Mother Of Pearl - Roxy Music, Stranded (1973) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 20th, 2005
11:12 pm	Leading Guys Meme Cary Grant You scored 9% Tough, 19% Roguish, 19% Friendly, and 52% Charming! You are the epitome of charm and style, the smooth operator who steals the show with your sophisticated wit and quiet confidence. You are able to catch any woman you want just by flashing that disarming smile. When you walk into a room, the women are instantly intrigued and even the men are impressed. When you find yourself in trouble, you are easily able to charm your way out of it, or convince others to help you. You're seen as dashing, suave and romantic. Your co-stars include Katharine Hepburn, Irene Dunne, and Joan Fontaine, stylish women who know a class act when they see it. Find out what kind of classic dame you'd make by taking the Classic Dames Test. My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 6% on Tough You scored higher than 66% on Roguish You scored higher than 22% on Friendly You scored higher than 94% on Charming Link: The Classic Leading Man Test written by gidgetgoes on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 19th, 2005
10:34 am	Transmission = Fixed Success! As of this moment, my car is finally in perfect operating condition. I've been having trouble with my tranny for some time, first I noticed a fluid leak, and next I found the thing was 'chugging', having difficulty switching gears. I traced the problem to a a defective oil pump, and ordered a new one. Yesterday it came, and this morning I finally completed the operation and test drove it. Runs smooth as silk ^.^ Last night, I got a call from my Mom (!!) saying that my grandmother was in the hospital for a heart attack. Jan and I (in his car, obviously) raced over to Hershey Medical Center, where we found out it had only been a Angina attack. They're keeping her overnight, but the doctors say that with proper medication, she'll be fine. Dua Yinepu for that *whew* Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: And She Was - Talking Heads, Little Creatures (1985) (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
9:00 pm	Bad Jackal I've been a bad jackal. Those of you who know already will immediately know what I'm talking about. Those who don't... all you need to know is I've really let my mate down. We'll be alright, we're getting throught it, but I think he deserves a public apology from me: I'm really, really sorry, Max. Please forgive me. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
2:10 pm	Fictional Journal! Inspired by rikoshi's fictional journal journal kozatoi I decided to rework one of my older stories in that format. I wrote this back in college, 'tis quite long, and will take time to rewrite, but that's good! It's kinda weird posting a hundered entries at once ;). Besides, it gives me something to do when work's slow. Hope you enjoy! 'Tis Here: sorakder Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Coworker Chatter (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
12:56 am	Yay! Yay! Yay! Happiest. Day. Of. My. Life. I'm mated now!! Seriously! And I know, like I've never known before, that he's the right one for me. I can't imagine not living and loving him 30 years from now. It's just so amazing all we have in common. I've been in love with him for a long time, and only now did I find out how much he loved me back. We went and got mated right away. It's all so awesome! I'll keep you all in suspense, but here's a hint: He's a jackal ^.^ (You know who you are!) Current Mood: ecstatic (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 24th, 2005
1:01 am	Friends Only I've decided to make my journal friends-only from now on. This really isn't due to any incidents, just to the fact that I am a fairly private person, and what I post really only may matter to a few people. I'll be keeping what is already posted public; If you want to be added to my friends list, just friend me. I don't require entrance exams or anything :) I just need an idea of who you are, so I know you're not a random troll. (BTW: I have zero tolerance for trolls. I'm not going to respond, I'm just going to instaban you - no questions, no trial by your peers. I have better things to do with my time) Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: The omnipresent 60 Hz hum of my electronics (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
4:36 am	Interview With A Jackal cyriljackal gave me some very tough questions in the interviewing meme, which I am finally getting around to answering. If they seem a little incoherent, it's because I've been awake for the past 30 hours o.o I go sleep now... 1. Who is the person you most dislike, and why? A few years ago I would have given you a list of politicians whose policies I despised. Now I realize that the real problem is not the politicians, but the uninformed, clueless voters who put them into office in the first place. I can't really focus my anger on one person, because it's never one person's fault. It's the problem where you lump a bunch of misguided but well intentioned people together, and let their ideas feed upon each other, until you have a group of people whose ideas become dangerously unconnected with reality. That's why I avoid associating *only* with certain groups of people. There are groups I like more than others, but I always try to see the other side of the story. 2. It is the year 2025, describe what's happening in your life, and the world at large. Wow. This is a toughie. I'll be living my semi-hermitlike lifestyle, mostly keeping to myself, but making treks to see friends now and again, ans of course keeping internet contact. I'd like to have a decent sized plot of land out in the mountains, where I can do my inventing and music playing in peace. I won't have to work, one of my patents will have given me enough money to live off of, not rich by any means, but who cares about that? As for the rest of the world, who can say? 3. What's your worst childhood memory? Probably the time when I was in 8th grade, and mom decided that I was selling drugs at school, which was BS of the highest degree, I have no clue where it came from, but she kicked me out of the house and then threatened to call the cops on me because I was sitting outside, begging to be let back in. 4. The machine from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is erasing all your bad memories, but at the last millisecond, you decide subconciously you want to hold on to that _one_ lovely bittersweet memory. What is it? Bittersweet. Probably when I committed myself to Wernersville State Mental Hospital. It meant dropping out of college for a time (although then I was seriously in doubt of going back) and admitting that I had problems I couldn't deal with on my own, however, it also meant that I might find some help. It was the start of my taking responsibility for myself and my problems, and in the end, it was one of the best descisions I ever made. 5. What interests or passions you had, that are now diluted or gone, do you most miss? Acting. I was a regular in all the school plays throughout my career, and out Drama coach told me I was the best Hamlet she ever had ^.^. I loved playing roles of all types: the goofy, eccentric Algernon from The Importance of Being Earnest, the slick, scheming Iago from Othello, the brooding, tragic Hamlet... It was one of the few things I enjoyed in High School. OK, now it's your turn! Post a comment, and I'll ask you five questions, which are then to be answered in your lj, replete with an offer to interview more people. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Paranoid Android - Radiohead, OK Computer (1997) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 15th, 2005
2:59 am	I hate Bees! I was playing catch with the Dogmonster today, and having fun. Suddenly I through the ball, he goes to look for it, and comes back whining. I figured I through it outside his electric fence range, so I went to get it. Lo and behold, there it is in the middle of the lawn. I went to get it and said "Wes, what's the matter with you, you're balls OH CRAP BEES!" Yes, the ball landed right in the middle of a hornet nest, and boy were they mad. I got stung twice. Wes got two stings on the head, and one hornet in the crook of his arm that had to be removed via tweezers. Not that it bothered him, of course. Tonight I went out and RAIDed the hell out of their nest, so they should be no longer a problem. Oh, and a MUCK friend admitted he was falling madly in love with me, and I with him. Interesting Day, eh? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 7th, 2005
3:32 am	Pointless Updating Well, I'm going to update even though I have nothing useful to say, 'cause I can. After a comment by mikosquirrel on FurryMUCK, I dug up my Zombies albums, and, well, I had forgotten how great these guys were. If they hadn't been royally screwed by their record company, as many 60's acts were, I don't think The Beatles would be considered the end-all be-all of classic rock. Don't get me wrong; I like The Beatles a lot. They're just overrated, is all. Oh, still working on my story, will have the next section posted tomorrow. Current Mood: okay Current Music: She's Not There - The Zombies, The Zombies(1964) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
1:41 am	Stolen from chibiabos Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me. It can only be one word. No more. Then (if you haven't already) copy & paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:23 am	Story: Part 1 Well, I survived my fireworks fiasco :). And I ever found the time to write and pst the first snippets of my new story! Not much happening yet, just character development and such, but tell me what you think! Nicholas awoke unceremoniously to the ringing of his alarm clock. He felt for the snooze button for a moment until he remembered he had disconnected it after several instances of being late for work. Resigning himself to waking up, he got up, still fully dressed from last night's partying, fought down the blood rush to his head, and deliriously wandered into the shower. It was going to be a long week. A quick cold shower returned his senses, and after a cup of coffee he looked at today's work order: MediTech Servicing, Inc. Customer: Anovis Laboratories Problem: Defective MRI Scanner - probable RF coil malfunction Technician: Nicholas Demyanov He scanned the rest of the order, looking at the problem description and diagnostics. At least it should be an easy fix, he thought, probably just a loose wire. He looked at the map provided, and recognized the site, a new genetics laboratory recently built on the outskirts of town. With a stretch and a sigh, he put on his uniform, stuffed the work order in his pocket, and walked out to his car. * I really got to get out of this town. The morning rush hour was unusually severe. Fortunately, he had a habit of leaving early, so he wouldn't be late. He stretched back, played some music, and contemplated his situation, as he waited for the traffic to clear. He had always thought he was meant for bigger things than this. Being a medical equipment technician payed well, but he never felt it was his true calling. What started as a way to earn enough money for graduate school had somehow morphed into a career. He had been a brilliant Electrical Engineering student, but money was tight, and after his father had a stroke he put his ambitions on hold to care for him. He always intended to go back to school, but student loans and nursing home fees had wreaked havoc on his bank account, forcing him to work full time just to keep up. A honk from behind knocked him back into the present, and noticing the jam had cleared, he drove the rest of the way to today's work site. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: White Room - Cream, Wheels Of Fire (1968) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 4th, 2005
6:07 am	Writing Again Well, I finally decided to put my extended vacation to some good use. I'm writing again! Furry stories! Furry transformation stories! Huzzah! Throughout my time spent in the insanity of FurryMUCK, I've developed tons of ideas, but I've been too busy, or more likely, too lazy, to transform them into actual written products. Well, all this is about to change. I've got a story that I'm really excited about writing for the first time in a while. I'm not going to divulge the plot quite yet, other than that it involves a human transforming into a jackal(lucky!). I'm thinking of writing it in serial form, and posting the pieces here. Be sure to tell me what you think! In other news, preparation for my annual fireworks fiasco is complete. It will be an evening of grilling, music, and fireworks, all provided by myself. I'm a bit disappointed in the fireworks I was able to get my grubby hands on this year, but they're still way better than what you can buy in those little fireworks shacks. I'll update tonight to tell you if I'm still alive. Current Mood: creative Current Music: I Don't Remember - Peter Gabriel III, Peter Gabriel (1980) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 1st, 2005
10:45 pm	Idiosyncrasies! Since rikoshi forgot to tag people for this one, I decided I'd volunteer, 'cause this sort of thing is right up my alley :) The idea is too write down 5 of your idiosyncrasies. Here's 5 choice cuts of mine: I am incapable of eating without something to read This one's kinda bizarre, and it can get annoying at times, because I can't just "sit and eat" - If I stop at a fast food joint and haven't brought any books with me, I'll wander around like an alzheimer's patient until I find a newspaper or something. It can even be something I've already read; I just have to have something in front of me. Hypersensitivity to light and sound I have a lot of difficulty tuning stuff out. If there's an annoying noise in the background, I can't relax until I found the offender and turned it off. And there are quite a few sounds I absolutely CANNOT STAND to the point of needing massive headsets to drown them out if I get near them: Vacuum Cleaners, Hair Dryers, Dog Squeak Toys, among others. I have been known to wince and hold my ears involuntarily if one of these catches me by surprise. This is also the reason I'm useless at parties; I can't discern individual voices among the din, I get massive sensory overload that makes me uncomfortable and twitchy. On the other hand, this kind of thing can be a bonus when I perform, because I can easily discern notes (I have perfect pitch) and separate instruments. I also have an excellent musical memory, and can frequently mimic a piece after hearing it once or twice. The ubiquitous laptop case I carry this thing around everywhere. It's like my purse, only cooler-looking. The funny thing is, I never use it to carry my laptop in. It hold instead 5 of my favorite books (Edward's The Riemann Zeta Function, Davenport's Multiplicative Number Theory, Nathanson's Additive Number Theory, Kiver's Television Simplified, and Solid-State Television Theory), several notepads and pencils,CD collection, with a player, and several extra pairs of socks (more on this later). This 'kit' follows me everywhere, to the point that I feel really weird if it's not hanging around my shoulder. Socks and Sandals One of my more weird fashion desicions. You know how Einstein never wore socks? Well I always wear them. I also always wear Sandals, even in winter (I just wear woolen socks then). Why? Moslty its to keep dirt off my feet when I go outside, socks are easier to replace and wash, and also they absorb foot odor better than sandals alone do. I always carry extra pairs, in case mine get soiled. CD cases I hate putting CDs in those carrying cases that hold 40 or so. They feel homeless to me unless they're snug in their jewel cases, with liner notes and everything. This does increase the bulk of my CD collection I carry around, but oh well. I tag: dracocroc, cyriljackal, vandringar Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: The Real Me - The Who, Quadrophenia (1973) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 30th, 2005
2:51 am	Teh Memez! They spread! Stolen from chibiabos 1. Reply and I’ll write something about you. 2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me. 4. I will tell you my first memory of you. 5. I will tell you what animal you remind me of. 6. I’ll then tell you something that I’ve always wondered about you. 7. Then post this in your own journal Current Mood: calm Current Music: All My Friends Were There - The Kinks, VGPS (1968) (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
9:24 pm	Work, work, work Telecommuting can be dangerous for your health. I got a month of it following my appendectomy, and it's only been a week now. The thing is, I tend to slack off most days, and then cram in the equivalent of a 13 hour day before my boss checks on my progress. Today was a cram day. A fun one, too, rewriting crummy old DSP code. A few parts taxed my brain, but mostly it just taxed my fingers. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Quite Rightly So - Procol Harum, Shine On Brightly (1968) (1 Comment |Comment on this)